ok... this weekend. In a nutshell, this weekend was awesome. It was so much more than I expected... I mean, Statewide last year was cool and all, but htis year was so much better... so much more real.
So we all load up in the bus and head for Oxford... and it's raining... which makes me happy, but bummed everyone else out. Everyone is loud and yelling and excited and everything... in short, it's a great bus trip. We stopped in Pontotoc to eat... and made it to Camp Lake Stevens (like, 10 minutes outside of Oxford) only a little later than planned... they divided us into cabins, and we met our cabin mates... I was in a cabin with Courtney, two girls from USM I had met last year, and 4 girly girls... 2 each from DSU and The W.
*must insert random note at this point* Why do girls bring bags of stuff to a retreat? They knew it was going to rain all weekend... so what was the point of bringing 4 different lipsticks, 17 eyeliners, 3 curling irons, a flat iron and 2 hair dryers? Each? I mean really, girls... pull it back in a pony tail, and forget the make-up... we all look like crap, you're wasting your time. *end of note*
All my cabin mates were pretty cool, and we got along ok, I guess. Our small group was pretty cool... so much better than last years small group... the speaker was... a little pushy for my taste, but he had a lot to say. I guess I'm just not one of those people that sees demons around every corner, or feels led to prophesy over anyone... but that's a style thing, I suppose. Like I said, he had a lot to say, and was very thought provoking... I need some time for my brain to recompile and figure out exactly what I think about what he said.
The awesomest part though, was the worship... the band was so focused on worship, and the people there were so focused on worship... you couldn't help but feel it and join in... it was the kind of joyful worship that makes you feel so free you want to dance, and run, and laugh, and cry... all at the same time. It's truely an awesome feeling... to be that uninhibited.
I guess I miss out on that freedom sometimes at Wesley... I bring people into Wesley, and then, out of fear that I'll scare them away, I try to sit still during worship like a good little Baptist girl... the last thing I need is to chase people away because I'm a "holy roller"... But my heart dances before the Lord... and it was nice to be in a place where I didn't have to care who I was distracting or who was looking at me, I could close my eyes and shut everyone else out, sing as loud as I wanted, and dance, and move... and it was all between me and my Creator. It was truely awe inspiring.
So this weekend was definately a spiritual mountain top... I may have more to say about the speaker and worship and stuff as I figure more of it out... my brain's still kinda on overload.
posted by Deedee 5:00 PM
This is my brain..... in part, at least.
