Today I would like to complain about two things.... Highschool girls and stupid people.
First, Highschool girls. Not just any highschool girls, but the ones that walk around the mal saying things like "Oh, my god, did you see his shoes?!" I have determined that these are the peopl that the fashon industy makeds clothes for. For example... if you go to Wal-mart, you can buy two kinds of women's jeans: Jeans that fit your natural waist (which for me is two inches above my belly button).... or jeans made for highschool girls. Highschool girl jeans are built for girls who have no shape... they have no butt and no thighs, and they wear their jeans about two inches below their hipbone. But, becuase I am not a high school girl, by the time I find jeans that will stretch around me and cover the top of my but, they are like, four miles too long. And I refuse to wear old lady jeans that fit around my rib cage.... so that leaves me one option: boys jeans. Now, their is nothing intrensicly wrong with boys jeans, but it bothers me sometimes that I can't get cute jeans with flares or embroidery or anything.... grr. And I even tried more expensive jeans, but htey still don't fit me right. so I'm stuck with boys jeans. All because of evil highschool girls.
Now, stupid people. If you know nothing about computers, and you cannot read and follow written instructions, you should not work in a webshop. How hard is that? I have written detailed procedures manuals for everything we do.... and yet, I'm spending the next two days (and yesterday) holding someone's hand and nursing them through a fairly simple task. We're working on rev2 conversions.... they involve no codeing, only cutting and pasting... how hard is that? But no, every step I have to go over a million times. Dadgum it. Work somewhere that isn't a computer based field. Grrr.
Go here and laugh at stupid people.. I especially liked the one about how the government is "modifying weather for the purpose of delaying very large earthquakes on the West Coast, New Madrid and The East Coast".... just too funny...
posted by Deedee 6:00 AM
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you know, it kinda sucks. I finally have time to blog..... and it's like, 6am and i have nothing to say. Blah. Here goes nothing....
So i had a great time in Memphis this weekend, and came home with a new (used) tire on my passengers side back tire.... not a terribly bad thing, I don't guess. Oh, but I lost my liscence plate in the process... that kinda sucks. But hte weekend itself was fun.... Friday night Chad and I went and played cards at Brian's house (with Brian, even), and Saturday Chad and his entire family and me all piled into the Grand Marquis and drove to Swifton, AR, ro visit his grandfather. (Did you hear that? we fit 6 adult sized people in the car for 2 hours! that has to be a record). And we left there late, thereby missing dinner with the BC group... And I was grumpy, because I hate being late... but it turned out ok, we had time to drive out to Cordova and Eat at McAllister's (Bulldog Deli, only not in Starkville) before the movie... which turned out to be really nice because we got to talk... something Chad and I hadn't gotten to do all weekend. So we met the BC group at the Cordova theater, and watched Goldmember... I thought I wasnt going ot make it out of the theater.... it was just way to funny. And Sunday, everyone slept late, and then Chad and I went to Kris and Manda's for Avery's Birthday... and I left Memphis like, 2 1/2 hours later than I wanted too, but it was all good :-) I still made it home in time to fix/break my grandmother's computer, and talk to my dad for a few minutes. so everything wass good. :-)
So this week, my goals are to finish up my physics class, and maybe get some housework done over the weekend.... or sleep. Whichever comes fisrt :-)
posted by Deedee 5:07 AM
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Friday, July 26, 2002
I get to go to see Chad today.... I get to go to see Chad today :-)
posted by Deedee 9:44 AM
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dude... I have a funky image tag sticking out of the side of my blog. I wonder how long that's been there?
I guess it won't hurt it to stay a little longer :-)
posted by Deedee 2:42 PM
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Images on the sidewalk
Speak of dream's descent
Washed away by the storms
To graves of cynical lament
Dirty canvases to call my own
Protest limericks carved
By the old pay phone
And in your picture book
I'm trying hard to see
Turning endless pages
Of this tragedy
Sculpting every move
You compose a symphony
And you plead to everyone
See the art in me
Broken stained glass windows
The fragments ramble on
Tales of broken souls
An eternity's been won
As critics scorn the thoughts
And works of mortal man
My eyes have drawn to you
In awe once again
--Jars of Clay
So today is an interesting day... I'm in a odd, introspective mood... Don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing yet... we'll see.
On a happy note, my mommy bought me enough food to feed an army... so I'll have food when I go to school. That'll be good. maybe I won't kill my roommate. Maybe.
Look what NASA and CSC (my employer) are doing.... it's pretty cool.... Brian, you might like this... it's a super computer for tracking and predicting, recording, etc, weather patterns and weatehr events. Take a look! posted by Deedee 9:03 AM
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Monday, July 22, 2002
I have no comments at the moment.... But I have copncluded that this is not a serious problem, at least not for me. After freaking out for a minute that Blogger had (once agian) eaten my comments, I visited several otehr sites and discovered that no one has comments... and that Kris and Manda's whole site is down. Which royally sucks for them, and anyone who might comment on my site, but at least it's not my problem.
One problem in the world that I am not personally responsible for fixing.
This morning, I think I had a lot to say... I had a whole blog mapped out in my head.... but I worked, instead of blogging... imagine that.... and now it's gone. Oh well... it probably wasn't important. It very seldom is.
I htink I'm skipping class tonight... I really want to.... I htink I can affoard it too... we're spending like, the bizzilionth night in a row on mag fields... I have three fingers, I can figure out mag fields. Class is so dull.... Ho hum.
I am really missing school right now.... I have no life here.. no time for a life, but still.... I have slightly more time at school... but not much. Oh yeah, I remember this morning's blog.....
*Complains about roommate's lack of communication skills in regard to e-bay and money*
*Complains about roommate's lack of computer skills*
*Complains about being told one thing, and expected to buy another.*
Ok.... I think that was it. Speaking of which... I need to check and see if I won those stupid things....
posted by Deedee 4:16 PM
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Friday, July 19, 2002
There... Finally... I think it's all back in place.
So this has been my lafe this week...... I go out of the way to do something extra, or to do something nice, or whatever.... and not only does no one notice, but someone comes by and says, "oh yeah, you did this wrong. Why don't you rewrite/redesign/reconfigure it this way. What I really want is..." Grrr... I redesigned the glossary like, four times.... and I redesigned the article checklist about 8 times... and I still got all my other work done... but I had to put in 13.5 hours of overtime :-) so sad.
but now I'm sleepy.... I'll have to take a nap before Chad comes into town... either that or I'll fall asleep during Monk.. That is such a funny show... anyway
Other than the frustrations of work, life is ok... Checo is fixing my car... and I got 100 on my physics test... and life is generally ok. More sleep would be good though.
Ok... I'm am actually going to go nuts. So yesterday, I went to Karen to ask a question about the glossary database/HTML page(s) I've been working on... I needed to know who would be entering the data after I leave so I cuold try and word the procedures manuel accordingly... You have to understand, this glossary has two years of vocab terms in three grade levels each... that's an awful lot of info. I've been working on it... cleaning it up, updating it, yada yada... for a year and a half... And she says "you know... what I really want is this and trys to explain how it should be printable by grade level (it was) and this and that... and so she made me redesign the whole dadgum thing... not a simple thing where I ccould rearrange some columns, but this really complicated rearrangement that involved cutting and pasting every cell of this spreadsheet into someplace different... the spreadsheet had over 1500 fields, with at least 4 cells each... So all day yesterday, and for the last 7 hours today, i have worked on that stupid thing... I got it done. Finally.
But now, the procedures manuel for the glossary has to be entirely overhauled. And, I have a lesson to write (i've been suposed to write it all of this week, but due to glossary (and other) problems, it hasn't happened. And, I was assigned to write the Rev2 manuels... try wrtiting a manuel for something that doesn't exist yet.
Maybe I'll help Mindi do PDFs for the rest of the day... that would be nice.
posted by Deedee 11:39 AM
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Thursday, July 11, 2002
ok. I think I can blog like a normal person now. No big words. (the really bad things is, I've been talking in big words all day).
So I have boiled it all down to this one problem: I'm frustrated. For several reasons. First, I'm frustrated because I don't feel like I'm fulfilling my purpose at work. I have worked all this week and gotten almost nothing done... Somehow I have this mad idea that I'm supposed to contribute more than I cost... And I think I've actually accomplished about $30 woth of work today.... but I "cost" the company $300+. (Plus, I probably used at least $5 worth of paper this week). So I'm not really sure what to do. I've been working... I've been (for the most part) working hard. But I can't finish anything, because things keep changing before I get them done...and that frustrates me. I have some innate need to feel needed, and to feel like I'm important. And I'm not getting there this week.
Second, I'm frustrated because I can never seem to express myself the way I want to. I try to say something, and it comes out wrong, or it just doesn't come out, or I sound stupid, or I want to say something and I can't.... so I end up replaceing what I was going to say with some random filler. Like "grrr". It's not that I don't want to say something, it's hat some part of me is not functioning properly... so everything gets clogged up. And then, given enough time, I explode. Like I have been a great deal of this summer. I hate not being able to communicate.
I also hate exploding.
And being unpredictable... although predictability wasn't so great, either.
I just wish, every once in a while, that I was normal. Or at least close. I wish my brain functioned like normal people's brains. And that I could understand other people. Especially girls. I don't understand girls. I wish I could interact well with other people. I wish people could understand that I'm not the smart one, or the quiet one, or the loud one, or the dorky one.... That I just am. I wish people wouldn't assume that because I read a lot I'm smart, or because I like programming that it's easy, or that because I'm interesting in the Holocaust I'm obssesed with Hitler.
And every once in a while (we're talking once in a blue moon) I wish I was a real girl. I wish I could own a hundred pair of shoes, or buy a dress new at the Limited, or buy put on makeup and not feel guilty for wasting time/money/space, or feel like a dumb girl. And I want to be able to talk to other girls and not feel like I don't belong, or feel like i need to change the subject to something I'm familiar with.
God I must be in an odd mood... look at all those words... better fetch your dictionary. Sorry.
posted by Deedee 12:42 PM
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Sorry this post is so long in coming.... work has been unbeleivably busy.
Just in case you wondered, I had an excellent time in Memphis, although my teeth hurt the whole weekend (I finally managed to squeeze in a consultation with the Oral Surgeon for the 23rd so we can talk about the need to extirpate several problem teeth). But Friday Chad and I went out to an extremely nice restraunt... nicest one I've ever been to :-) We ate wonderful steak, and the manager came and apologized to me three times for overcooking my steak. :-) It was very very nice. And chad gave me a very nice anniversary present, a 3d rose laser etched in crystal :-)
As to this week, I have done nothing but work and school... Due to my proclivity to write procedures manuals, I was assigned several of them, but I cannot seem to finish one before the procedure changes... but that's government work, I guess. And, because of the dilatory nature of several of my co-workers, I'm rushing to get stuff done before the (already past) deadlines.
And my (two levels up) boss had the temerity to sign us up for another contract, when we're rushing to get things done as it is (add one additional article and two additional articles for each grade level each work). Grrr. There's a chance it might not go through... but not a big one. We're probably going to be stuck with it... grrr.
Anyway, that's life. This weekend: trip to Starkville for a wedding.
posted by Deedee 12:40 PM
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Monday, July 08, 2002
ok ok... I promise a more substantial blog later... maybe tomorrow. For now, suffice it to say I had a wonderful time this past weekend, and my car runs great. And I'm at work, and i have class tonight (which sucks). But for now, here's a good laugh:
OK, we all know that 666 is the Number of the Beast.
But did you know that:
$665.95 - Retail price of the Beast
$699.25 - Price of the Beast plus 5% sales tax
$769.95 - Price of the Beast with all accessories and
replacement soul
$656.66 - Walmart price of the Beast
6, uh... what
was that number
again? - Number of the Blonde Beast
00666 - Zip code of the Beast
1-900-666-0666 - Live Beasts! One-on-one pacts! Call Now!
Only $6.66/minute. Over 18 only please.
Route 666 - Highway of the Beast
666 F - Oven temperature for roast Beast
666k - Retirement plan of the Beast
6.66 % - 5 year CD interest rate at First Beast National
Bank, $666 minimum deposit.
i66686 - CPU of the Beast
666i - BMW of the Beast
DSM-666 - Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of the Beast
668 - Next-door neighbor of the Beast
a+rw - File permissions of the Beast
Do you ever have a question you just really want answered, but you don't want to ask because you know it's not your place? And you htink you hear snatches of the answer in different places from different people, but you never get the full story, or even enough of the story to figure out if it's the same story or about the same people your question concerns... and it seems like people are teasing you with the answer, but you know they're not, because your not even sure if they know you don't know... Or know that you wonder... and then you think maybe you wouldn't really want to know the answer... maybe it would upset you, or change things somehow.... and you think that maybe just asking the question would change things... but not knowing is killing you.
I hate unanswered questions...
But don't mind me... i haven't had enough sleep, and I'm making things up... must.... sleep... tonight. Sleep dep ceases to be fun when you start seeing things.... But sleep is well on the way... I get off of work in 4 hours... then make a Wally World run, home to pack and stuff, and off to bed. And to Memphis tomorrow :-)
posted by Deedee 1:23 PM
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Tuesday, July 02, 2002
Just in case you were wondering... I have the most wonderful boyfriend in the world!! And he takes very good care of me :-) And therefore, I will have a blue (not orange or pink) bug to drive back from Memphis this weekend :-) One that runs!!! And the engine's in one peice! Imagine that.... And it has seats! And seat belts! (It just gets better and better!)
Other than that, I have no news. I have been utterly worthless at work today... But I created work for several other people by digging out some mistakes someone made... and I finished one lasson plan. But no coding, no database, only a little bit of speadsheet work... *sigh* I haven't done much except price car insurance, stare at the computer screen, and listen to Schindler's List...
Which, I suppose, isn't that bad...
Anyway... Off to more work, then school, then hot tea, then bed.
posted by Deedee 3:13 PM
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Monday, July 01, 2002
This one was just too funny....
Jesus took his disciples up the mountain and,
gathering them around him, He taught them saying:
Blessed are the poor in spirit.
Blessed are those who mourn.
Blessed are the meek.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness.
Blessed are the merciful.
Blessed are the pure in heart.
Blessed are the peacemakers.
Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake.
Blessed are you when men revile you on my account.
Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven.
Then Simon Peter said, "Are we supposed to know this?"
And Andrew said, "Do we have to write this down?"
And James said, "I don't have any paper."
And Phillip said, "Will we have a test on this?"
And Bartholomew said, "Do we have to turn this in?"
And John said, "The other disciples didn't have to learn this."
And Matthew said, "May I go to the bathroom?"
And Judas said, "What does this have to do with real life?"
Then one of the Pharisees who was present asked for Jesus' lesson plan and inquired of Jesus, "Where are your anticipatory set of goals and objectives in the cognitive domain?"
And Jesus wept.
posted by Deedee 11:07 AM
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This is my brain..... in part, at least.
