So.... if someone hasn't blogged since, like, October.... have they given up blogging? or should I check their site every couple of days just in case? (I really have no contact info for said person... we only kept in touch through blog/livejournal, anyway...) hmmm.
posted by Deedee 11:43 AM
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Funny poem by Poe.... one of the greatest poets ever....
I'll tell you a plan for gaining wealth,
Better than banking, trade or leases —
Take a bank note and fold it up,
And then you will find your money in creases!
This wonderful plan, without danger or loss,
Keeps your cash in your hands, where nothing can trouble it;
And every time that you fold it across,
'Tis as plain as the light of the day that you double it!
~Edgar Allen Poeposted by Deedee 2:00 AM
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Thursday, January 30, 2003
uugggghhh... worked out. Definately feeling it. Need a nap.
Anyway... other than that, life is ok... Think I'm going to go hang out at the Wesley tonight... not sure yet. Maye there will be people there to socialize with. Or something. But tonight is Freshman group... so i'll have to be careful not to get in the way of that.
Not very coherent... I htink I slept too much.. or not enough... or something. I'm really out of it. Blah.
intersting.... started a new project... but *shhh*... It's a secret. for now, anyway.
And life is excellent... Got back an algorithms quiz today... the class as a whole did really poorly on it (four guys I sit near on the front row got 7.5, 3, 4, and 6.5).... but I did good. I got a 9.5. Which made me very very very happy. I have conquored Merge_sort.... because I rawk.
posted by Deedee 1:37 PM
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Ha ha ha ha ha... I know sbbn's real name... I know sbbn's real name... and I didn't ask or nothin'... I just found out. I am so awesome. ok, ok, so maybe I'm not that awesome... it was written at the top of his paper... but still. I know. And therefore I feel special.
In other news... this was my day today: Get up, go to Physics, take quiz, come home, go to sleep... oversleep, wake up to the phone ringing... Matt calling to use my printer... go downstairs to escort Matt up here, run out of printer ink... talk to Matt... talk to Matt... talk to people online... do pre-lab... go to lab... lab r0x0rs... come home, go to Wesley... sing... be annoyed... come home... go back to Wesley... proof read sbbn's paper... talk to sbbn.... talk to sbbn... talk to Will and Michael... talk to Matt... come home. And now I'm talking to Chad. Eventually, I plan to take a shower... and maybe even sleep.
Tomorrow I have class and class and lunch and class and class and bell dancing and choir and walmart... no plans other than that... although I might proof the rest of sbbn's paper.... or rather, the final draft. And some homework... I might do some of that.
Overall, today was pretty good... it had it's annoyances... but most of those were overridden by the fact that Strong Bad published :-) and it was about The Cheat :-) *sigh* I love The Cheat. The Cheat is so awesome.
But, on the other hand, I got a bunch of AIM screen names from a friend.... they're supposed to be people I know from CEF... but, looking at their info... I have a bad feeling these are like, the next generation of people from CEF... like, the younger siblings of the people I knew. *sigh* Oh well.... at least I have people to spy on.
posted by Deedee 6:32 PM
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Happy day.... Dr. Mr. Boggess gave a very entertaining lecture on converting non-deterministic finite automata into deterministic finite automata... and did two problems on the board.... then gave us a two question quiz.. which looked exactly like the problems he worked on the board. Yay for taking good notes!! Then Algorithms was cancelled, because Andrew's sick... so I get an extra hour of naptime!! Yay for naps!! He he... Happy day.
posted by Deedee 10:05 AM
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Sunday, January 26, 2003
Good friends are nice to have.
As much as I whine about my role as advice-giver, and the stupid things my boys do sometimes, and stuff like that... My boys can really come through for me at the oddest times. Like this week.... sbbn ate lunch with me and James and Michael and William on friday, and James came to Wesley tuesday night with me... So the guys had all seen him with me. So today at the Superbowl party (which was awesome, by the way), Matt asked me who he was. And, without saying anything mean or derogitory towards James, I explained how I knew him... Matt cocked his eyeborw and looked at me, like I wasn't giving him the whole story. Then sbbn asked who James was... and I told him the same thing. Matt and sbbn asked me what his deal was... why he hung with me... so I explained, still trying not to say anything mean... But they undestood... and, after hearing a few stories, actually offered to go put him in his place. Which I might call on them to do.... at some point. Right now... it's just annoying. But, if anything changes, it's good to know that my boys will take him out. (Not that I had any doubt, but still...)
wow... lots and lots and lots of blog.... check out my archives, in their entireity... catch up with my life in the last... how long have I been blogging again? A year now? wow.
Anyway... enjoy. I'm going to go do something productive... like watch the Superbowl.
posted by Deedee 2:15 PM
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ok.... now to get a dummy page up at ece.... and then I'm done!!
posted by Deedee 2:46 AM
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ok... moving blog to new server... testing....
posted by Deedee 2:28 AM
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Too funny... can't... stop... laughing.... Too.... much... Strong Bad....
Ok... I'm better now. But really, I should start like, a frequently asked relationship questions page... or a frequently had relationship conversation page... We'll start with this one.... titled "I can't ask people out, so I'll never get married."
******************** (12:44:37 AM): i have determined i won't ever get married
******************** (12:44:45 AM): i've never actually asked some one out
******************** (12:44:59 AM): or, no, wait, yeah i have
******************** (12:45:06 AM): but that was back in high school
******************** (12:45:08 AM): hmmm LydaAlexander (12:45:12 AM): dude.... your life isn't over.... there's stil time
******************** (12:45:50 AM): but i'm always worried if the girl already likes me or not before i ask her out LydaAlexander (12:47:01 AM): and so you're afraid she'll start liking you because you ask her out?
******************** (12:47:33 AM): no, i want to make sure a girl likes me before i ask her out LydaAlexander (12:47:56 AM): but isn't asking her our a way to find out?
******************** (12:48:56 AM): yeah, but i'm too worried about the whole let down/ ackward thing LydaAlexander (12:49:45 AM): ok... any girl worth her weight in cheesy puffs won't let it be akward for more than like, three days
******************** (12:49:57 AM): i'm scared i'm never going to ask another girl out and
******************** (12:50:16 AM): and the only ones i do go out with would be those extraverts who just want my body LydaAlexander (12:50:39 AM): ok ok ok.... you're scared that you're never going to do something that you have complete control of (ie, asking someone out)?
******************** (12:50:48 AM): yep
******************** (12:51:05 AM): and people keep asking me if i've got a girlfriend
******************** (12:51:10 AM): why i haven't gotten one LydaAlexander (12:51:20 AM): the reason the only ones you go out with are the ones that want your body is that they are the only ones brazen enough to make the first move
******************** (12:51:33 AM): that's what i was trying to say
******************** (12:51:50 AM): this is so depressing LydaAlexander (12:51:54 AM): so.... find a girl you like.... suck up your pride.... and ask her out?
******************** (12:52:21 AM): but i don't know who to ask, don't know who wouldn work out, too scared to ask,
******************** (12:52:26 AM): *cries* LydaAlexander (12:52:42 AM): there's nothing wrong with you for not having a girlfriend.... but its obviously important to you
LydaAlexander (12:52:47 AM): why are you scared?
******************** (12:52:52 AM): i just am
******************** (12:53:09 AM): i'm feeling lonely and vulnerable
******************** (12:53:18 AM): won't ever get married
******************** (12:53:30 AM): maybe i'm too particular LydaAlexander (12:53:33 AM): ok.... this is 1am depression speaking
******************** (12:53:36 AM): *cries agian* LydaAlexander (12:53:43 AM): you are definately not too particular
******************** (12:54:08 AM): what if all the good girls get taken LydaAlexander (12:54:29 AM): look.... You believe God has a plan for your life?
LydaAlexander (12:54:36 AM): or destiny?
LydaAlexander (12:54:39 AM): or Fate?
******************** (12:54:45 AM): kinda
******************** (12:54:49 AM): but not totally LydaAlexander (12:55:01 AM): there is no kinda... only do or do not....
LydaAlexander (12:55:18 AM): like, God has a plan for everyone else, but he left you out of the deal?
LydaAlexander (12:55:29 AM): or like, God has a plan, but you could still screw it up?
******************** (12:55:46 AM): there is that whole free will thing LydaAlexander (12:56:31 AM): free will is definately an issue.... the whole Methodist thing...
******************** (12:56:52 AM): what can we say LydaAlexander (12:57:26 AM): but Omniscience is also an issue.... I mean, yes, you have the free will to do whatever you want.... but doesn't God know what you are going to do?
******************** (12:57:38 AM): yes LydaAlexander (12:57:39 AM): can't he plan for all possibilities?
******************** (12:57:44 AM): yes LydaAlexander (12:57:57 AM): so.... no matter what you choose, God has a plan?
******************** (12:58:25 AM): that hurts my head
******************** (12:58:43 AM): it's too late to think up things like that LydaAlexander (12:59:03 AM): The plan may be different, depending on what you choose.... the whole alternate universe thing... So take it up with Him.
******************** (12:59:16 AM): lol LydaAlexander (1:01:07 AM): ok.... my advice is this.... the next time you find a girl you like... suck up your pride and ask her out to dinner. Take her to The Veranda. And if she turns out to be something you didn't expect.... you're out some money, but you had a good time, and you actually asked someone out. If it works out, yay.
******************** (1:01:31 AM): but how do you know if you like a girl
LydaAlexander (1:01:36 AM): if she turns you down, realize that her rejection doesn't mean you are any less of a person....
******************** (1:01:36 AM): or........
******************** (1:01:47 AM): what i mean is LydaAlexander (1:01:54 AM): how do you know if it's physical or mental or what?
******************** (1:02:02 AM): well, that too but.......
******************** (1:02:29 AM): lately i think i've been trying to become friends first and try to figure the person out and if it'd work out
******************** (1:02:35 AM): without even goinjg out LydaAlexander (1:02:41 AM): right
LydaAlexander (1:02:55 AM): and your problem then is?
******************** (1:03:07 AM): but i'm still not going out with the person
******************** (1:03:28 AM): ugh
******************** (1:03:31 AM): *cries* LydaAlexander (1:03:50 AM): so you are friends.... and you still like her.... so one day, while you're talking, ask her to dinner or something
LydaAlexander (1:04:08 AM): or slowly transition into the going out thing... that seemed to work for Chad
******************** (1:04:14 AM): yeah
******************** (1:04:26 AM): i'm just worried that i'm going to miss the boat LydaAlexander (1:04:38 AM): like... she'll get someone else?
******************** (1:04:42 AM): that the good girls are all getting married LydaAlexander (1:04:53 AM): no. There are always good ones out there
LydaAlexander (1:04:55 AM): I promise
******************** (1:05:17 AM): the why are all the ones i know dating
******************** (1:05:25 AM): or have bf's
******************** (1:05:30 AM): or engaged
******************** (1:06:06 AM): i jsut can't seem to find one who's seem really right for me LydaAlexander (1:06:16 AM): maybe you're not looking hard enough. Or maybe you just haven't gotten there yet. Maybe you're waiting on someone.... just give it time
******************** (1:06:19 AM): i always liekt o think i'm looking LydaAlexander (1:06:28 AM): not having a girlfriend isn;t the end of the world
******************** (1:06:29 AM): i keep an open eye
******************** (1:06:39 AM): but i'm not on the hunt persay LydaAlexander (1:06:54 AM): good
******************** (1:06:57 AM): i'm not that extraverted
******************** (1:07:09 AM): and i'm not sure i want to me
******************** (1:07:10 AM): be LydaAlexander (1:07:20 AM): look.... When God made Eve, did he make Adam go look in the Garden for her?
******************** (1:07:24 AM): becuase in my mind when you're on the hunt you're just going for looks LydaAlexander (1:07:32 AM): no.... he brought her to Adam....
LydaAlexander (1:07:37 AM): so just be patient
******************** (1:07:49 AM): i'm still worried though
******************** (1:07:58 AM): but i'll just go to bed and feel better in the moring LydaAlexander (1:08:14 AM): probably.
LydaAlexander (1:08:26 AM): 1am blues... get you every time
******************** (1:08:35 AM): well i was depressed earlier tonight LydaAlexander (1:08:45 AM): ummm.... 11pm blues?
******************** (1:08:49 AM): and ashely invited me over to cheer me up
******************** (1:08:53 AM): and it worked LydaAlexander (1:08:56 AM): cool
******************** (1:09:01 AM): but that's jsut because she makes me happy LydaAlexander (1:09:04 AM): :-)
******************** (1:09:22 AM): *cries*
LydaAlexander (1:10:11 AM): go to sleep
LydaAlexander (1:10:19 AM): really... it'll be ok
******************** (1:10:23 AM): *cries*
******************** (1:10:35 AM): good night LydaAlexander (1:10:43 AM): good night
********************signed off at 1:10:47 AM.
So... the point of this is.... really, there are still people out there. So don't be depressed.
But what do I know... I'm just a dumb old calculator.
posted by Deedee 1:15 AM
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Saturday, January 25, 2003
Pet Peeve #842: People that complain about my stuff.
Ok.... rules to live by: If I invite you over for breakfast...
Do not complain about the way I cook my bacon. Unlike my steak, I actually cook my bacon all the way through, but I like it to be chewy. Not break my teeth. You are eating my food, please deal with it.
Do not stand over my shoulder and tell me how to cook. I have been cooking bacon since I was four, I'm sure I can figure it out.
Do not complain about the amount of grease in the pan.... there are papertowels for you to use on your bacon if you feel like it. Grease makes it taste better.
Do not complain about the eggs. I love eggs scrambled in bacon grease, and I will fry or scrable yours as you want them... but don't complain abut mine.
Do not complain about the fat content of breakfast. I seldome eat a real breakfast, and therefore, I want to make mine good. Fat is good.
Do not complain about the lack of beverage choices. This is not Waffle House. I have milk, and water.
Never, ever, under any circumstances, use soap to take the grease off of my cast iron skillet. Soap is for plates, and forks, and glasses.... and should only be used on cast iron sparingly.... like to take spagetti sauce out. Not to take grease out. Grease is what makes cast iron work.
How could he just leave a newborn child... in a toliet? In January? It would be bad enough to leave a child that is old enough to walk... or old enough to go somewhere and get warm... but an infant? What kind of monster is he?
How can a jury decide on a puishment? How many years is a newborn baby worth? What about the baby's mother? She obviously had reasons she couldn't keep the child... but that doesn't mean she wanted him dead... or even that she didn't want to keep the baby... What kind of hell is this guy putting her through?
posted by Deedee 2:20 PM
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eh... yeah. I seem to be quite verbose between 2 and 3am... I also seem to have forgotten how to type... or maybe I just don't proof as well. Anyway... to balance out yesterday's realy long post, this one will be short.
I got up, went to class, went to class, went to the gym, went to Laura's... and now I'm back here. And I am very very very sleepy. And I never did figure out what I got out of bed to do last night, although I have a vauge idea it had to do with algorithms... I dunno. It was weird.
So yeah.... I'm going to sit here and try to figure out what I wrote last night. It all made sense then...
posted by Deedee 1:50 PM
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Do you ever go to bed, and you're almost asleep, and then you remember something important that you were supposed to do... and it wakes you up, and you get up, and stumble around the room for a minute, but then you can't remember what it was that you woke up for, but you know you can't go to bed unless you do this thing that you forgot to do in the first place, but can't remember what you forgot?
Me either. I'm just always up at 2am. I'm..... uhhh.... studying. That's it.
No really... I didn't get off the phone with Chad until like, 1am.... then I climbed out of bed and turned out the lights.... and climbed back into bed (force power would have been a good thing here)... and I was almost asleep... but I woke up with a paniced thought that I had forgotten to do something.... and it had to be done tonight.... so I got up.... but dadgum if I can remember what I was supposed to do. But now I'm awake....
I used some of this time to read Chad's new post (yes, I know I haven't updated the link to his page yet... I'll get to it... prolly before he gets around to updating his link to me... or maybe I'll move again, just to be annoying and stuff.)... Which was interesting and thought provoking. We had a long discussion the other night about the future, and what was happening with us... where he was going to be, where I was going to be, who was going to have what letters after their names, weddings and babies and all that stuff... and came to no conclusions. But, after talking tonight (actually, before we talked tonight, as Chad had already talked to Michael about housing), it looks like Chad will be coming back here. Maybe... It's still tenative at this point. But... at least we know, in the short term, what is happening.
Chad's post, as well as the conversations we've had over the last week or so, have really made me think. What are my goals? Where do I want to be in 5 years? 10? 20? I really don't know.... Right now, all I want is to get out of school. School is fun... but very stressful. Money is stressful (ie, there's never enough of it)... classes are stressful.... dorms are stressful.... long distance relationships are stressful... I realize that stress is not eliminated in the real world... and that, at times, the real world is more stressful than the college world. But... I just want to be done. When I graduate, I have nothing left to prove. I will have done what my mother always wished she had... and what my dad just barely managed to do... I will have earned a Bachlor's Degree... But where will I go? What are my dreams? I told Chad I didn't have any dreams.... but I don't know if that's exactly true.
Most of my dreams involve who I want to be, not what or where or how educated. I want to be someone who is known for speaking my mind... but to manage to do that with some amount of tact, as not to alienate the rest of the world. I want to be someone that my parents and Chad can be proud of... Someone that accomplishes things. I want to be someone everyone can relate to... someone that's fun to be around, but not too fun.... I want to be serious when I need to be. I want to feel like I know what I'm doing and where I'm going.... I want to show that my personal relationships take priority over eveything else... and yet no be too caught up in what other people think of me.
But what about my future? What dreams do I have for that?
I want to work in a webshop... I suppose that's a dream... I would love to be a database programmer... just spend all day designing and interfacing SQL, HTML, Java, Perl.... building database backends for some site somewhere... Have a cube, all to myself, where I could wallow in my own dorkdom as I programmed... Go to lunch with a couple of people from the office at least once a week... Spend Sundays at church, Saturdays in bed, and my evenings relaxing with Chad and doing something fun that I don't have time to do in school... like roleplaying. I want ot keep a clean house... but not so clean it doesn't look lived in... just clean enought ot be able to walk and sit and function without always having to move piles of stuff. I want to be able to cook dinner at least a couple of nights a week... and to go out every once in a while... Eventually, I want to have children... I hope to have children.... at least a couple... but i don't realy want to stop working... neither do I want to pay someone to raise my kids... Maybe I'll find a job I can do remotely... or just work in my spare time... At some point, I want to go back to school... I still want to teach school, and that requires a teaching degree... or maybe I'll just get a Masters in computer somethings... But that's not even close enough to be a dream.. more like a wisp of something unformed in the back of my mind... kind of like what dreams are, before they really become dreams.
Like Miss Patty told me once... When you're driving home at night, do your car headlights shine all the way to your house? No. They only light up the road directly in front of you. Is there anyway you can see all the way home? No. So you have to go with what you can see... and trust that the next peice of the road will be lit up when you get there.
So I can't see the road from here to retirement... or from here to careers... or from here to children.... or from here to PhD... I can't even see the road from here to July 4, 2004, though on a clear day, I think I can catch a glipse of it on the horizon. But I can see the road from here until tomorrow. And I know that tomorrow, I'll be able to see more. And I also know that it really doesn't matter where I am... or what I'm doing... as long as I'm with Chad, everything will be ok. And in the long run, that's all that really matters, anyway.
posted by Deedee 2:17 AM
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Thursday, January 23, 2003
Still putting off looking at the man pages.... I managed to procrastinate quite well today.
I went to class... which was cool because I got my last Physics quiz back (the one I forgot about) and I got like, a 90 on it (yay for being my own calculator!!)... and then I worked out (yay for me! That makes four times this week!).... then I was starving, so Michael, James, and William came with me to the Union... and we ran into SBBN... and we all sat and talked while we ate. Mostly about The Courtyard... SBBN knew some old school people that I knew, so we caught up on some stuff. Then we ran into Joe Langly, and he and I hung out for awhile.... in which time we discussed alternate realities and multiple dimensions... very Joe-like things. I had forgotten just how cool Joe really was, and why I always used to hang out with him.... I mean, I never forgot that he was cool, I just forgot how cool he was *grin* ThenGreg called, and wanted to feed me dinner, so Joe left, and I took a shower, and went to Greg's... and now I'm here....
And some random person is talking to me on AIM.... it's really odd. This is what I know about him so far: He is from St. Louis, he likes hockey, he plays hockey for CMSU, he is in the Air Force, he wants a picture of me. This is what he knows about me: I go to MSU, I'm not from Starkville, my name is not Lydia, and I don't give out pics. Interesting.... Ahhh... now we get to the real target of the conversation.... he likes to date. Computer people.... he's a network tech. lol.... I told him I don't date much anymore... it makes my fiancee jealous. waiting.... waiting.... waiting.... get back to you on that one.
I should prob'ly go study for the two quizes I have tomorrow.... but I don't really feel motivated.... I got like, 10's on the last two without studying... so why am I studying, again? I suppose I should at least recopy my notes so I can read them. I have trouble reading the scribbled stream of conciousness stuff I put out in class and try to pass off as notes. Can't figure out why.... but anyway... I guess I had better get on that. Sometime soon.
Back to the AIM dude: No response. Typical. I am engaged, therefore I no longer matter. Which I guess makes sense... if you happen to be a teen-aged guy looking for someone to cyber with. Oh well.
posted by Deedee 8:03 PM
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Oh yeah.... forgot to tell you about the weird homework assignment I got yesterday. Dr. Little let us out like, an hour early.... and told us to go home and read the man pages. All of them. "If you run out of commands you know.... make something up and see if there's a man page for it."
Riiiight. All of them. So you know how many UNIX commands there are... and all of them have man pages.... Yeah. I'll get right on that.
posted by Deedee 7:42 AM
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Wednesday, January 22, 2003
Ok... people of the internet... a little courtesy should be excercised when naming files you intend to share on any type of file sharing program... In other words: Do not name your pr0n crap as "Babylon_5_season_3_lyta.avi" or anything similar... I just downloaded like, 100 files from WinMX that are supposedly Babylon 5... but all but two files were pr0n. 98% of the files I downloaded were not what I wanted, but something entirely different. Blah.... people, people.... don't you think that if I wanted to download pictures/movies of naked people in various odd contorted positions, I would search for something... more related to the topic? Or am I confused as to how the internet works? Is Babylon 5 a code word for something? Or do people assume that all Babylon 5 fans like pr0n?
I am something right now... it starts with a "C" and ends in "onfused"...
posted by Deedee 11:15 PM
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*hums arabic music* Guess what!! Today.... is Belly Dancing Day!!! (not that it's an international holiday or anything like that... it actually happens every Wednesday here at State... but it makes me very happy). Everyone should take a belly dancing class at least once in their life.... it's a whole lot of fun *grin*
Anyway... thought I would entertain you with that bit of randomness...
posted by Deedee 4:56 PM
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Yay for me!!! Homestarrunner is back up!!! Look... they explain what went wrong.... and now you can go to all the Strong Bad links from my earlier blogs *grin* Oh yeah.. .and they put a new Strong Bad e-mail up.... it's pretty funny.... and Strong Bad no longer says "Scrolla buttonaes" when you open the menu.... He now says something like "Scrolling aorund, scrolling around.... Scroll buttons 2.0."
You gotta love Strong Bad. I mean, really.
Dr. Mr. Boggess' lecture was actually very intertaining today for some reason... I mean, i usually like his class, but today I was like, so into it... everyone told me it would hard.... but so far, I seem to be getting everything.... it works.... I can do it.... but then, all we've done so far is finite state stuff.... but, on the other hand, the rest of the class isn't doing too well..... so maybe I'm on to somehting. I dunno. We'll see.
And, relating to my previous blog about Miss Patty.... Here's what Kristen Trotter had to say about her.... Kristen was a member of my church, and when to the same Home school group as most of my friends... and she knew Miss Patty in kind of the same way I did. And, while I am not a great writer... she managed to put into words what I could not.
posted by Deedee 12:10 PM
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Tuesday, January 21, 2003
Wow! I went and worked out today, and I feel great!!
And I managed to convince at least two guys to join me for belly dancing class tomorrow night (I really had to twist their arms)...
And I did passably well on my Physics quiz this morning... which is interesting, since I forgot the fact that we had a quiz, and therefore did not bring my calculator... But since I am a TI-89, it was all ok.
And I have my first Physics lab today... which should be fun.
And several people (as in more than two) told me that I look hot today, which I thought was funny, since I was on exercise equipment sweating like crazy....
And the Educator Astronaut program went live today, which makes me very happy....
ok... People who say "We need to talk" really mean "I have a screwed up sex life and I feel the need to tell you, in vivid detail, about the afternoon I had making out with a girl that's engaged to a guy that routinely screws other guys." One more mystery of the world solved. But homestarrunner is still down/dead.... so no Strong Bad for me....
Note to world: If you violate your moral code, please do not feel obligated to confess to me. I am not your pastor, priestess, goddess, deity, saint, or intermediary... I will not be able to make you feel any better about your status as a good person, nor am I able to grant forgiveness. Please consult directly with your Religous Deity. If, however, you did something stupid and want advice from someone who may or may not have been there... I will be happy to give advice. And a hug, if needed. But no warm fuzzies. and no forgiveness. Despite what you may think, I am not endowed with godship.... I am simply a TI-89. That gives advice. Oh yeah.
posted by Deedee 11:27 PM
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AAAGGGGHHHH..... Homestarrunner died..... where is it.... I can't find it... Yahoo says it doesn't exist.... must... have... Strong bad... need..... funny....
Why can't people say what they mean? People who don't say what they mean leave their words up to interpritation by the rest of the world... and let me tell you, I am an awful interpreter. For instance.... This AIM conversation (screen name withheld, of course):
***************** (8:16:14 PM): we need to talk later
LydaAlexander (8:21:25 PM): about?
***************** (8:21:29 PM): stuff
***************** (8:21:32 PM): i'll call you
***************** (8:21:32 PM): bye
LydaAlexander (8:21:35 PM): ok
Now... what does he want? Is he mad at me about some random thing I did? Is he wanting to complain about his love life? Is he feeling particularly guilty about something, and feels the need to confess odd sordid things to me? Has he taken offense to the fact that I've been the only one working on the website (he has my number too... I'm sure he could have called me)?
Ok.... now to confuse things even more... here's his away (censoring is his own):
It's pretty F---ed up. But we have a plan to make it stronger, smarter, & better than before. We believe in "I Can" none of this "I Can't" And together we can do it! (great cheers and applause)
So... it the website that is F'ed up? Or his life? Or what? What does this have to do with me? And why does he need to talk to me? Is he going to call late, like, after I have gone to bed? (yes) Does he care that I have an 8am class? (no)
Why doesn't he just tell me what the crap he needs to talk to me about? I really hate trying to figure it out....
posted by Deedee 9:03 PM
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Oh yeah... I may have found a new home for my blog... Chad's new domain. I'll keep you posted on that one.
posted by Deedee 5:13 PM
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Have you ever had something you liked... the kinda of thing you had always liked, and always liked... and could remember liking, even before things like that were popular... and you happen to be somewhere, and someone else sees this thing, and procedds to rant from 20 minutes about how awful this thing is, and how only stupid people would like it, and how no one in their right mind would want one, and how dumb it looks, and how stupid people are who actually like this thing... and you end up feeling like crap?
so my question is this... why do you feel like crap? Why does it matter? Does the fact that someone thinks you are stupid because you like something really make you stupid? No. So why does it matter? Why do you care?
Not that this has ever happened to me. No. Of course not. Ever. Purely hypothetical. As always.
posted by Deedee 5:03 PM
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Saturday, January 18, 2003
Flipping people off while wearing boxing gloves.... the topic of this really funny Strong Bad e-mail (no catchy songs this time... I promise)
posted by Deedee 10:26 PM
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One more thing.... this is absolutely my favorite Strong Bad e-mail ever.... prolly because everytime he sings "Come on and get in the boat, fish, come on and get in the boat, fish fish", I can hear SBBN (read: "Spoon") singing and doing that little jig.... ha ha....
posted by Deedee 11:06 AM
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Question of the day?
How long does it take first class mail to get from Starkvegas, MS, to Boulder, CO? Is the affected by the envelope it's in? ie, will it get there faster in a red envelope? What about a card sized envelope vs. a letter envelope?
Just wondering.
Related to yesterday's post: I apparently do not have the l337 skills to make the stupid server recognise includes... but that's ok... I still might could get out of doing frames.... JavaScript is a wonderful thing.... but then presents some user issues... what if Joe Q. User has an old browser that doesn't support js? What if they have a new browser that they have deactivaed js on? Will they just not see my spiffy menu bars? How will they navigate the site? What the blazes does my co-webmaster do all day, since he's obviously not putting any time in on this site? Can I use this as an excuse to buy more books?
Anyway.... I guess the world could do with a little less complaining. So I'll shut up for now. And save all my other rants for later.
posted by Deedee 10:50 AM
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Welcome to the Wild World of Deedee... Deedee is temporarily unavailable at the moment, as she is pulling her hair out trying to make SSI work on the archive server. It's not working... which means bad things. Like frames. Deedee hates frames. Which is why she is not here. She is battling valiantly against the server.... but the server is determined to win. So... leave a message after the tone, and, if she's not totally insane by the time she gets done, Deedee will get back to you. *beep*... Ha ha.... you thought that was the tone, didn't you? Well it wasn't. So there. So, just to keep you busy while you aren't reading what Deedee wrote (because she hasn't written anything), look at some of these. Be patient... the site is kinda slow. ok... don't forget to do your thing after the tone..... *beeeeeeeeeep*
posted by Deedee 5:00 PM
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Thursday, January 16, 2003
the oddest thing just happened....
A guy I haven't talked to in like, 3 years just IM'ed me... and asked what (2/5)2^(5/2) was.... so I told him.... then he asked what 8(sqrt2) was.... so I told him.... he said thanks... and left.
Now, about my two eaten posts. Basically, both said the same thing... I apologized for being out of whack this week, and explained part of what was on my mind. It went something like this:
One of my high school mentors, Patty Dorsett, died Friday morning. Not that it was unexpected... she had cancer. But it still hit me kinda hard. Mostly because I'm not at home, and I couldn't go to the visitation / funeral. In fact, it hit me so hard that I refused to talk about it. I don't even think I've told Chad yet. William knew it had happened, because I talked about getting my parents to send flowers... but I didn't tell anyone how upset I was. I didn't think anyone would understand. You would have to have met Miss Patty... so imaginative and full of life... you would have had to have seen her face when she talked about her hair growing back when she came off of chemo (it grew back curly... she was so excited about never having to perm it again)... you would have had to see her stop everything to be with her family when the cancer came back and she chose not to fight it anymore...
She will definately be missed, both by our church, and by our community. Things won't be quite the same, ever.... but I guess that's a mark of actually having done something with your life... there's a void when you leave.
There... now that I feel better, maybe I'l stop being so mean *grin*
ok... checking to see if blogger works.... It ate two posts yesterday... crossing fingers......
posted by Deedee 11:15 AM
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Saturday, January 11, 2003
Yeah. So let's here it for really young freshmen. Who are no longer at State. Who have no idea how to deal with relationships. And for girls that are too nice and end up hurting them. And for e-mails sent in the heat of the moment. Yay.
So there was some drama here yesterday. One of the girls on my hall (the only one I know) got an e-mail from a guy we both know that she went out with once (as in, went to Mass with him)... and then decided it wasn't working... and he left the school... but still wanted to go out... and she tried to tell him it was over, but was too nice about it.... then he got hurt.... then he said she was a ho... yada yada.
So the moral of the story is this: just because a girl dumps doesn't mean she was only after sex.... or your body... Especially if sex was never a part of your relationship. It may mean that your personalities are different, or that she's not ready for a relationship, or that she doesn't like you, or any number of things. Even if she was in the past been sexually active, it doesn't mean she wanted that to be a part of your relationship, or that she broke up with you because you didn't put out. So stop assuming the worst.
Which leaves me with one question.... Why am I a relationship couselor? People think that because i have this great relationship going on, I know all the answers.... ok, I know this may come as a shock to you.... but i don't have all the answers. Yes, I have a steady, stable relationship.... but i have no clue how I got here. I'm just trying not to screw anything up. So, in actuality, I am as clueless as you are. I will be happy to listen to your problems, and try to help.... but really, I have no clue.
oh yeah... Note to self: do not try to climb out of a bunk bed while talking a a cell phone. *owwie*
And I almost forgot... roomie has arrived... from Asia... will be interesting....... complete with freeze driyed fish... that still have eyeballs... oh yeah. Interesting is not the word.
posted by Deedee 11:07 AM
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Still no roommate... hopefully they've forgotten me in the roommate switching jumble.... maybe I just won't get one...
For the time being, I am using the extra space to construct a suprise for Chad... :-) I'll tel you about it... umm.... after he knows what it is.... but before he *really* knows what it is *grin* I am so eVil.
posted by Deedee 11:38 AM
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Wednesday, January 08, 2003
ok... moved in... new roommate moved out... have room to myself, at least for a few days. She didn't like my NASA decor... Scareing off roommates, as only NASA can *grin*
So about my co-workers at home... we all work on the NASAexplores website (check it out sometime). We have three teachers, two science writers, two interns, one editor/marketing specialist, and a whole hall full of computer gurus that build things for us to break. Like Rev2. Which we are very good at breaking.
Teachers:
Cindy is our Team Lead, and does all the paperwork and proposal stuff we never realized Karen did before she left *grin* And she keeps us in line... mostly. She is a High School Chemistry teacher, but tries to help out with middle school lessons whenever she has time. Cindy is our onlyu remaining Charter member.
Jeremy is our other High school teacher... he teaches Physics. He usually ends up writing middle school lessons, too.... we're short one Teacher at the moment. Jeremy provides our entertainment with his imaginative lesson titles... and he's fun to pull pranks on.
Jocasta is our Elementary Teacher / office caterer / mom. She takes care of everyone, bakes the most wonderful desserts, and writes cute lessons for the younger grades.
Maggie is our senior Science writer... She's been at NE longer than I have, but recently moved and is working remotely. So we only get to see her every once in a while.
David is our new Science writer. He graduated from Ole Miss... but I don't hold that against him too much *grin*. He and his brother sound exactly alike... which was the source of a prank we pulled on Jeremy...
Mindi is our other intern... she recently graduated with an education degree. She's really cool... she writes lessons and helps out where every needed... the only other intern I've worked closely with that doesn't slack off when she's needed
Dawn is our editor / marketing expert. She's got an awesome sense of humor, and will tell you like it is... beware of her red pen... she'll make your lessons/articles bleed. She does a great job of promoting the site everywhere.
Then there's me.... and Alan, the Boss-Man... and the computer people who build our stuff. and that's about everyone, I think. *sigh* I miss work. Not Rev2, mind you.... just being at work.
Blah. I'm here. And partially moved. But not all the way. Long story. Involves old roommate (Elisa)... and housing... and a room that it much much much smaller than my old room... and lots and lots of stuff. And Z's. Lots of Z's.
Grrr.... Anyway. So I'm at school. I may be online. I may not. Give me a holler, if you feel like it.
And when I have time (like, tonight or tomorrow).... I will tell you all about the people I work with at home... As only NASA can *grin* There David... I will write about y'all.
And now it's time for class. Physics III, actually. So.... ttfn.
posted by Deedee 7:41 AM
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This is my brain..... in part, at least.
