Yesterday was a really pissy day… and today has only been slightly better (mostly due to a real home cooked dinner… chicken nuggets, green beans, biscuits and corn *grin*).
I didn’t feel good yesterday to begin with… then I was assigned the paper from hell in my Tech Writing class. And, to make matters worse, not only do I not know exactly what they want from me in the paper, I can’t understand a bloody thing from the three pages of background information I was given…
Then I went to see Myra, my nurse practitioner. She told me that (according to this last set of blood work) I am not anemic, I do not have mono, I am not pregnant (duh), I do not have blood sugar problems, and my thyroid and hormone levels are great. In short, I’m the healthiest I have ever been as far as my blood work goes… yet I still can’t get enough sleep, and I’m grumpy, and my back hurts, and my head hurts… but I’m healthy. So I have to wait a week and a half and go back if I’m still sick…
I just want to know what is wrong with me… I shouldn’t be like this. After two days, four hot showers and half a tube of BenGay, my back still hurts. My head still hurts. I’m falling asleep on my feet… even after 8 or 10 hours of sleep. I’m overreacting and being upset by things that usually don’t even faze me… I have a test tomorrow, and I can’t concentrate, I can’t study, I can’t get any of my programs to work, I can’t understand what my professors are saying in class… I’m just walking around, getting more and more frustrated and making everyone else miserable. I want to curl up in a ball until it all gets better… but I can’t. Meanwhile, I’m yelling at my roommate, and frustrating Chad, and confusing the hell out of the rest of my friends.
I never could do anything the normal way, could I?
posted by Deedee 10:17 PM
This is my brain..... in part, at least.
