Wednesday, March 05, 2003

 

Insight, as always, helped sort me back out.

So here I am. In Starkville. And my family is in Huntsville. Which is ok, normally, I guess. But right now it sucks. On the other hand, here, I have friends who can support me, and understand that I'm ging through a hard time. At home, I have a family that is going through the same thing I am.

I'v made it through the last few days on shock and adrenaline... When mom called me Friday, I was upset, but I was ok.... because Mom wasn't ok. And we can't both not be ok.

So since then, Mom has become ok... and I'm going home... but I have this awful fear that if I suddenly become not ok, Mom will be not ok, too. And that would be bad.

So yeah. After Spring Break, I'm going to have a nervous breakdown... I just have to make it through break.

And I don't think any of that made any sense at all. To anyone but me.

posted by Deedee 12:30 AM