Sunday, March 23, 2003

 

When someone comes and tells you this "new" thing they just learned, all wide eyed and excited about having figured out one more thing about how the world works, have you ever been like, Yeah, duh... how did you not know that? Thereby deflating their little cool trip, and in the process, making them feel stupid... and then, upon later inspection, you realize that they did not lack this information because they are stupid, you had access to this information because you are a freak?

Me either.

So yeah... could say a lot. about war. and people. and relationships. and me. but I'm not sure where to start. *sigh*

So... war, I guess. War is.... never good, I suppose, but needed sometimes. Is this one of those times? I don't know. This is the first realy military conflict that I've been old enough to care much about... I mean, I remember Desert Storm... Daddy was at sea the whole time, and Mom and the kids and I were living in Navy housing... I remeber knowing there was a war, but war was really far away, and kind of a term I didn't understand, fully. But now we're at war. and I haven't heard any really good reasons for us *not* to be at war... but war sucks. people die... on both sides. and that's never cool. They were talking on the news today about the soldiers that have been killed... and they showed pictures of this one guy... he was so... average... someone's son, brother, etc..... and he could have so easily been on of *my* boys.

People. I don't understand people. I don't understand the mentality that allows people to display one image to the world (like, say, the image of an extremely pious church-goer who probably is his denomination's equivalent of a deacon or an elder)... and yet live a totally different life (like one that includes, say, bragging about sexual exploits). People hurt my head. A lot. On another note about people... I don't understand people who don't respond to "I'm not comfortable with that." Dadgum it, if I'm not comfortable with something you're doing to me or around me, don't do it... or wait until I leave... or leave yourself.

Relationships... Mine? all of mine are ok right now, I guess... Chad's coming down Tuesday, so everything's great as far as that relationship goes. Everyone else's? No comment. Yeah. We'll leave it there.

Me? I'm tired. and i have stuff to do. And I want to sleep. other than that, I'm ok, I guess. Sir Mix-A-Lot is going to be at the Hunt Club for my birthday... so that's going to be awesome... I'm oging home again (hopefully) the end of April.

I asked Daddy what he wanted us to dance to at my wedding.... he said he'd think about it, but hte first response was Sunrise, Sunset from Fiddler On The Roof. Which is good, because my first thought was A Book Report On Peter Rabbit from You're A Good Man, Charlie Brown. I htink Fiddler is definately more appropriate :)

posted by Deedee 3:19 PM