Monday, May 12, 2003

 

I'm at work. Yay!!

So I'm home from school, which is good, because I'm not stressing about grades and stuff, but is bad, because I'm at home with my family like, 24/7. *sigh*

Daddy did chemo last week... so I came home at the end of that. Which sucked, a lot. Thursday night, when i came home, he was hurting really bad... to the point that he was crying, and then I was crying.... I had to leave the house. But Chad got me somewhat calmed down... and Daddy's ok now... or at least not hurting. It's one of those things, though... Daddy has always made everything better... but there's nothing we can do to make Daddy feel better. It's not fair...

And we're (translation: "I'm") trying to get everything moved from the trailer into the house, all before June 1st. But no one is helping. And there's no way I can do it myself... so something's gonna hafta give.

And my family are all high strung at the moment, and easily set off... and yesterday was Mother's Day... and I changed drugs this week...

so all this adds up to explain my lack of emotional stability at the moment...

but it'll all be ok. Because I'm going to Starkville this weekend with Chad. And that will make it all better. *grin* And we're gonna go and pick up my car. And maybe go house shopping. And drag some of my boys out to see the Matrix Reloaded.

Meanwhile, I'll be at work. Which is so much better than being at home. Because no matter how little I get done at work, and how much work is left undone (and let me tell you, there is always work left undone)... everyone is thrilled with my progress. And no one stresses about the work that isn't done... it'll either get done eventually, or it won't... we'll deal either way. Whereas, at home, everything has to be done, and everything has to be done now, and I never get enough of it done, and no one is ever happy.... blah blah blah. So yeah. Work is good. Really good. *grin*

posted by Deedee 9:53 AM