Thursday, May 29, 2003

 

ok... Let me explain to y'all what I know, so people will stop telling me things I already know in an effort to enlighten me.

I know I'm a doormat. I know people walk on me. I realize this... and I am, believe it or not, getting better about standing up for myself. It's not something that comes naturally to me, but I'm working on it. If I did not know that people walk on me, I would end up doing a lot more stuff for people than I do... I do not need to be told that people walk on me... if I complain to you about something, usually what I want is someone to say "Oh. That sucks." I do not want a lecture on how I let people walk on me... I do not need to be told all the things I do wrong to get in these situations... I do not need to be told to take an assertiveness class. I just want someone to listen.

I know I've gained weight. I'm not especially happy about this, nor am I especially worried about it. When I sense that it is becomeing a problem, and when I have the time and energy, I'll deal with it. End of story. If you are more overweight than I am, don't tell me what I should and shouldn't eat.

I know I'm in a bad mood... I'm working on that, too. I think that about 8-10 weeks of good solid sleep will cure me of that. Meanwhile, I'm sorry if I step on your toes. I'm dealling with a little more than I can handle at the moment, between my personal stress and interesting family dynamics... I don't have time to deal with your hurt feelings. I'll feel really bad about it later... But don't tell me I'm in a bad mood. I know I am. You'll only make it worse.

I'm sure there are other things I know that I could put here... but those are the ones that are bugging me the most tonight.

posted by Deedee 8:37 PM