Man there's so many times / I don't know what I'm doin' / Like I don't know now Be thinking about my dad - he's in the hospital again, and we don't really know why. Apparently (I get all my news 2nd hand at best) last night he started getting really really confused - like he thought he and mom were married in 1988 (try '79?), and that I was born in February (of this year) and lots of other stuff like that. At first, they thought maybe it was his blood sugar, but apparently it isn't, so now he's on the neurology floor of the hospital, waiting for the doctors to figure it out. CT scan showed nothing any more abnormal than usual, but they tend to be pretty unreliable for Dad since he's had so many head issues. So we're waiting for the MRI, and whatever else they care to run while he's there.
Meanwhile, I'm full of nervous energy (not in a good way), and running on caffeine and adrenaline. The baby hasn't slept much, and i have slept even less, and I'm second guessing my parenting abilities (at least as far as sleep scheduling goes...). So here's some snark, to hopefully help me diffuse some of my negative energy, lol.
Five things for five people who will (probably) never read them:
You're better off without him. Just don't immediately latch yourself onto the next piece of driftwood that you see - it's ok to be single for more than 5 minutes.
If you have to constantly tell me that something you're doing isn't "bad", you might want to take a second look. Are you justifying to me, or yourself?
The things that bug you now will only be amplified as time goes on - can you live with that? Really?
You have family everywhere around you - don't take that for granted, even if they are crazy. You'll miss them when you leave, I promise. (I do).
Honesty is really the best policy. And it is way less annoying than being lied to. Even on the little stuff.
This is my brain..... in part, at least.
